Symbiosis

Damned Spot

Finite Happiness

As I watched her giggle,
in that carefree way a child shrills
without hesitance or self-awareness;
with the infectious glee
that flares one's nostrils,
and forces out a laugh
no matter how stoic one's self pride is determined to be,
I realized that I was immortal.

Her laughter triggered the cognizance
that all moments prior to that one did not exist.
That all moments in my future plans did not exist.
And that there,
with the other children,
all amplifying the same insouciant laughter;
their hearty ha's heating the small room,
we were enveloped in a moment of finite happiness.

In that one moment of communal gaiety,
everything outside of it did not exist.
There was no suffering, no sadness.
No regret or doubt.
No rushing or watching the clock
because there is no time outside of our time.
In that one moment we were where we were
because there exists no other place to be.

I became aware that no other moment than the present exists.
Sure, the present is ever-changing
but in its inconsistency the present is always telling me that I'm here.

The Thrill of Fear

Weak

Strangers in Love

Self Lover

Regret

Dreams

Neither here nor there

Elusive

Lavaliere

Chain link: stretched and broke

Dropping the burden of an

Old, heavy pendant.

Rope Swing

Stretch. Reach high. Hold tight.

Tension. Running start. Take flight.

Let go. Flow. Alight.

Self Destruction

The vessel has shattered; smashed to bits by me

Loving hearts sliced open by sharp shards of glass

Bloody tears pour down upon what used to be

Memories are what's left of a perfect past

It can't offer refuge from the mess I made 

Scar reminders that perfection also bleeds

Next time I will think before I swing my blade

So in hunting wants, I don't destroy my needs.

Pointless

"Needs" are not fulfilled

Just as wishes don't come true

When you want too much.